How hard is it to throw away a diaper! Eww walk to the trash can
Yes that is what it is... I have known that for a long time. And I have always wondered if it was demonic oppression because it starts up most when I am working on myself. Those little jabs start coming out. Or I'm told I have too much pride for not accepting them or I'm "selfish" for wanting to be happy because they say God doesn't actually want me to be. (apparently they didn't read about joy in the Bible)
If I'm working out, studying, eating healthy, doing what I need to get done, then it starts up again to knock me down. Sometimes sticking up for myself, like today, makes it worse. It just keeps going.
I've started not listen to it and go into praise and worship because I can't handle it tearing down my mind anymore! And it helps!
I have come to the same place. Almost like, okay, God. Just take this circumstance. I don't know anymore. I can't handle it. Just You, Lord... He truly does. And the neat part... kinda clicks. I think I can do it with everything from now on, like the walls came tumbling down. Secret to peace? Worship. Bow down. Stay still... We Sang a beautiful song about that Sunday. All I did was praise.