Not to bring this back up but right now going through withdrawals, I kind of have to admit a lot of negative feelings keep coming up. If it wasn't for the negative feelings, I could easily handle it, and I think I'm handling it fine until all of the thoughts come up.
I'll be perfectly fine and then I'll be thinking about X out of the blue and depending who X is at that moment, I either end up crying or I end up being incredibly angry. Sometimes both. It's very irritating because there are things I'd like to just not emotionally involve myself in at all. I am extremely hurt and angry, but I'm usually pretty good about pushing it down and not thinking about it to get on through the day.
I'm not trying to do it. It just comes up out of nowhere and I have no idea how it happens.
I am actually going through this as I am typing this and the feelings coming up are extremely difficult to handle. I was going through this last night, and I had thoughts of everything from going back to bulimia (after 19 years... I was a teenager!) to being angry that I couldn't drink (4 years sober), to really bad thoughts to put it extremely lightly. Needless to say, I didn't make it through the quit.
But I'm going through withdrawals right now and I'm sort of feeling the same as last night and not knowing how to handle the feelings.
I'll be perfectly fine and then I'll be thinking about X out of the blue and depending who X is at that moment, I either end up crying or I end up being incredibly angry. Sometimes both. It's very irritating because there are things I'd like to just not emotionally involve myself in at all. I am extremely hurt and angry, but I'm usually pretty good about pushing it down and not thinking about it to get on through the day.
I'm not trying to do it. It just comes up out of nowhere and I have no idea how it happens.
I am actually going through this as I am typing this and the feelings coming up are extremely difficult to handle. I was going through this last night, and I had thoughts of everything from going back to bulimia (after 19 years... I was a teenager!) to being angry that I couldn't drink (4 years sober), to really bad thoughts to put it extremely lightly. Needless to say, I didn't make it through the quit.
But I'm going through withdrawals right now and I'm sort of feeling the same as last night and not knowing how to handle the feelings.