Yes (

), well, I have, over and over again. I have been banned, from Seventh-day Adventist forums (now called 'Adventistan', and others several times) for sharing material that is in Seventh-day Adventist literature, written by sister White.
Why do I share this with you? I hope that you might understand a little, of what it is really like to have your love turned away, again and again and again. To have the truth you share spurned, mocked, deleted over and over again. I have had hundreds and thousands (no exaggeration) of pages (posts) of material shared (from concern, love of the truth, and especially for those I am sharing with) simply deleted, along with whole accounts and everything that was posted on those accounts. Do you really understand to know what it is like, to be called fanatic by one's own people (brothers and sisters), let alone by those that know 'nothing', or only what is heard or read by so called 'cult' expert sites?
I have experienced over and over again, things as Tyndale, and Huss experienced, in the 'burning' (by deletion) of their work, and even in the animosity to burn me if they could reach me. I have had to start over hundreds of times. I have wept, and cried, and sobbed, and been broken to the point that sometimes, it is simply numbing, and my being is simply tired. I have been like Jeremiah in the pit of despair, a weeping messenger to his own people, up to my neck in mire, rejected, alone and pulled out by God's grace by some other small and humble persons (who were truly Christian).
I have even been rejected from the original Seventh-day Adventist church I was baptized in. Why? For teaching the truth from scripture, and the very words of the messenger of the Lord, and from history. I warned of wolves in sheep's clothing on numerous occasions, and it fell on deaf ears among the pastors on numerous occasions, and yet I was the one followed by deacons and elders, and held in numerous 'pastor's meetings', sometimes up to 3-4 pastors present trying to convince me of my 'wrong-doing', my 'heresies', my 'attitude'. What I share here (on this forum), and everywhere has never changed, only deepened in what is shared. I had to leave that original place, simply because I was no longer allowed to teach, share there and was under constant watch and guard. While there were small groups of persons there that did exist at the original place that was teaching heresy, like flat-earth, lunar sabbaths, allah = Jehovah (in other words syncretism) and other dangerous things, I always stood and taught against all those things, from scripture and the SoP/ToJ. Yet, I was counted among them.
I do not know if you understand what it is like to have your own blood relative family not understand, or treat you differently simply because they are no longer of the faith that I once was (Roman Catholic, whom my entire family from immediate to cousins, etc). Even when I was baptized (full immersion) into the Seventh-day Adventist movement, I did so without telling my parents, who, after learning 'freaked' for some time. They, at least, have softened over time, and so have I (for I was angry with them for some time, but it was misplaced, and I know direct that true anger to satan and his lies).
I have been door to door in whole cities, sharing material that was bought and paid for out of pocket (really Jesus already paid for all of it), just so people might know salvation in Christ Jesus, know what it is to be redeemed. Do you know what it is like to have doors closed on you over and over again. To be mocked at to the face? To be told that the police will be called if I do not leave their doorstep immediately? Have you ever been verbally assaulted to the face by a complete stranger at a door, and to take insult and injury of heart, so that your adrenaline runs? I have been bullied my whole life, so I know what it is like.
Even after 'landing' in another Seventh-day Adventist church (where a good friend, or so I thought once, not so sure now), one of another nationality, I was an outsider there (though they were outwardly kind most of the time), though I was allowed to teach and share there for a little while. Yet, even members there, after a change of the 'guard' (pastor, leadership) there, things began to change. I ended up where I am now, because all doors there closed as well. Yet, when I came to where I am in this place, the family, whom I thought I knew and counted as a friend, the father turned on me, and literally accused me of stealing (matters of tithing) from God, when I had no income (or increase) to tithe on, though I always gave offering even of the last dollars I had left, and whenever I earned any money (I tithed) from odd jobs for people, expected that I give some of it to them (though I was originally told I was to live there for free and not worry about that). Please understand. I was homeless now (except for their mercy), jobless (except for always being in service to God), down to my last dollars in savings (for emergency use only), all retirement money (which I had to pull, after no longer serving at AFmin, resigning in protest, after being watched there, and having 'leadership' meetings just like the pastor meetings at the church, really not being wanted there any more by some) had been spent on paying rent. I ended up being locked out of the house one night (10:30 at night), after returning late from helping a group of women get ready to do an evangelistic series (where the male leadership would lead out, but the sisters share the message), and had to call a person I barely knew here to come give me a ride back to the place I was helping at, and sleep there with only the clothes on my back. I went back, and ended up giving most of the last dollars I had to them in an offer of peace, and left from there, and I was the one treated as though I had done the wrong for leaving, for it made them 'look bad' to others.
Do you understand theefaith? Can you enter into just a little of my heart and see what is there for you, for all on this forum? I do not do it out of pride, or ego, or money, or praise, or prestige, or anything other than love of the truth, love for you and them (I do my best to research, to study, to learn to obtain, not for me, but for you and others). So when I share with you, please at least consider (even if you disagree, for whatever reason), that what I share with you, took time, took concern, took patience, took persistence, took love, took sacrifice at such a cost to bring. I only want to share what I have been given to you, freely. It is not enough that I have been given precious things from God. Without sharing it, it is as if it is a waste on me. I cry sometimes because I feel what use is it to have all this treasure, precious things of God (whom I know have personally, by the Holy Spirit shared with me simply because God loves me), and no one to experience it with, to share with, to talk about with.
I have not told you the half, though I have told you the truth.
What is the purpose of this thread? Truth, as always, in love.
People think I hate catholics, baptists, lds, jw, muslims, even Seventh-day Adventists, etc. Nothing could be further from the truth. I want all to have what I have been given of God in answer to prayer on my knees in tears, for it is precious, and it will bless. I don't know about you, but I am tired of all the lies of the devil in this world. I am tired of his compromises. I am tired of his temptations. I am tired of his attempted bribes. I am tired of his insinuations. But all those things are only what I feel, which is nothing compared to what God feels. How much more God, when he looks down and sees everything at once, and experiences all the pain and heartache and misery together for all of humanity, and must wait a little longer until the plan is completed.