let me clarify. I genuinely repented, and did great for about 5 weeks.
You are talking about being sorry for your sin for about 35 days.
Thats not what God is looking for.... as everyone is sorry for their sin at times.......especially when they get caught, or when their sin has destroyed their life, or someone else's.
Ive a friend for many years who was run over recently by a 20 yr old who was texting.. This boy who was driving looked up, and his van had crossed the oncoming lane and he ran over this person who was walking on the side of the road..
So, i bet he's still sorry (in repentance) for that situation....for years to come.
That is meaningless to God. It only has meaning to the boy.
What God is looking for is a specific type of repenting.
Its this..
To repent of not believing in Jesus.....To turn from this unbelief.......TO.......Belief in Christ. =
FAITH.
God says it like this.....>"The will of God is that you BELIEVE in JESUS, whom God sent".
See that = "believe in"...?
That means, where before you didnt....but now you do, and its a TRUE belief a TRUE Faith in Christ.
Reader......Give God that, and God will give you the "new birth", and make you His born again eternal Son, and you'll meet Him as Father, vs, meeting Him as your eternal Judge. John 3:36