Feeling low. I could use prayer.
I'm so sick of
-Friends that aren't friends
-My church not getting to know me beyond things I can do for them
-Being alone at five days out of the week because of Hubby's job.
I don't care if it makes me a weak person. I can't deal with it anymore. I don't think mankind is supposed to deal with loneliness well at all.
You hit the nail on the head, yet maybe do not realize it.
Friends.. Secularly Hang in two categories.
* A literal handful, that you rarely see or talk to, but regardless of passage of time, you can occasionally connect with and thoroughly enjoy.
* A slew of old and new faces you have a momentary pleasant cordial exchange face to face, but zero reliance on they be there in your time of need.
Church... Building, setting, (some very small, many or mega), sets the facts of who meets who. Everyone can be cordial face to face, maybe know a little bit about the other, but are for the most part, are face to face acquaintances and not friends out side of the Church setting.
(And yes, people are people, criticize, gossip, wonder, guess, about others, in all settings, Churches, Neighbors, Shopping, Driving, etc.)
Family...Yes, Secularly, it is instigated, promoted, taught, (somewhat enforced by, through, of...economy manipulation, education of children by organized institutions, rather than parents...inanutshell...
Secularly Separate the Family, by any means possible.
(Parenthood Without marriage, prisons for ridiculous nonsense, encourage female gender to be out of the home, easy divorces, easy abortions, others raising ones children, Two married, separate by work, long work hours, traveling away from home to work, on and on, promoted, encouraged.)
It’s an odd thing, when husbands and wives spend the majority of their time “separated”... The husband returns home, can plainly see, the results of what the Woman at home has done. The woman sees what results of what the Husband has done? Zip. Curious and Perhaps discussion of his work. And then what? The evening ends, go to sleep, repeat!
Where is the husband and wife time together? Week-end when wife can look out the window and see the husband mowing the laws, washing the vehicle, tinkering in the garage/shop? Maybe watch a movie together, where neither speaks to the other?
Not about you being a weak person. Is all about you being lonely and the best hope is
maybe 30 minutes out of the day some physical hugs and touching with husband, and FRIENDS relationship with Spouse of playing, flirting, laughing, reminiscing.... ZIP...
AND sadly, when that is NOT a regular daily happening...You as the stay at home Wife, is missing something, and the husband coming home tired, not having that regular daily happening...can not figure out what IS missing, Because missing means, what you once HAD, but now do not.
I don’t think your feelings are unusual. I’m sure you have been content, with not being the statistic, of woman with children and having had no husband, or woman divorced with children...AKA, married woman with same husband....
However, the fact is: what society promotes, fosters, encourages, makes easy, pretends IS normal, isn’t. IT IS SEPARATION of all People from each other, and promotion, storing the pot of People against people.
It’s nothing new. (Simply on steroids in this modern society).
God has a Big Plan for Separating People, With Him from Without Him.
Satan, Global society OF this world, mimic God, with a twisted element of deception.
Doom and gloomy sounding eh?
Do have some simple suggestions if you are interested, either openly on the forum or privately or not at all.
Glory to God,
Taken