I AM sort of disconnected, self-centered, broken, myopic and bipolar, but a practicing member of the cancel culture seems a bit much! :)
Have you ever even considered that being sort of disconnected and self centered and Bipolar AND myopic...that those may affect your thought processes?
I knew a bipolar guy once. His wife left him because he was more about God than she was. Oh a terrible day for the man, but she didnt take the house so maybe it's not all bad?
Next morning he looked out the window and seen that the entire area was flooded as far as he could see. He went to the top of the stairs ad saw household items floating all throughout the house. Chagrined he went back to his room and thugh what am I to do? So he went out onto the roof to look around where he assured himself in his heart, that God would save him. So he sat down to wait on the Lord. Suddenly he saw a boat come putting up the street. They called to hi and said, we'll get you out of there, climb aboard! The man said no, the Lord will save me...so they left.
Several hours later, and no God yet. so he prayed to God and asked for help. Please Lord, save me! Just as he was saying Amen he heard a helicopter which flew over his house and dropped a line to him, Come Aboard! The man said, No. God will save me! and the chopper flew away. He prayed soeme more and a few hours later, another boat came along and offered to save him from the roof amd floodwaters/ But he was having none of that. What kind faith would that be, to accept a ride from man when God himself was coming to save him?! So he said no and would not get into the boat. The sun set and he wouldnt go back n the house. He was waiting on God! During the night he fell asleep and rolled off of the roof and was swept away in the flood waters. The man perished. WHen he got to Heaven, he asked the Lord, why wouldn't you save me? Why did you let me perish? The Lord said, WHAT? I sent two boats and a chopper to save you and you wouldnt get in the boat! You did not have to perish. The man had trouble making decisions. He just didnt know it and failed to recognize when God was moving and we He hasnt.
In fact, I remember now. My Niece is bipolar also. When I asked to maybe land there when I moved back to ohio from Colorado. I didnt ask her. I asked my brother. He then told me that he actually lives with his daughter and her husband so he'll have to ask her. (will he pitch in?) Was here question. Of course he told her. I have always worked and pulled my weight no matter where I was. So it was all set, and I did move here and landed there until I could get on my feet and get local bearings. Now my niece loved that idea and I did pull my weight. I handed her a lot of cash. She was on top of the world. She had a husband who worked, her dad worked, and I was already pitching in. Then suddenly, she quit her job at the courthouse. She went to school and got a Masters degree in something minor, Criminal Justice? I forget. But she figured she dont need to work with all these men around. And she was as sweet as pie...at first. Then she got so confident in her position, that she began to not take her bipolar medicine. Who needs it, right? And boy oh boy did she turn vicious. It was like night and day. I gave her money to help with my share and even cooked meals and nice desserts for her kids! (She said, I dont cook! Her idea of dinner for the 4 kids was to buy two giant pizzas for them) She was getting progressively worse and her husband figured out that she had stopped her medication and he told her is that why you quit your job? ...and she freaked out on him and literally kicked him out.
I told her that was dumb, she needs her husband and her job! So she got mad at me and kicked me out! She wanted to increase my contributuons to cover what her husband usually paid in...Fat chance! Pulling my weight doesnt mean pulling her Husbands weight too!
My Brother said no, you're not kicking (me) out for I have done nothing but what I said I would do. So she then proceeded to kick my and her dad out of her house! Her own Dad! I could understnd her being mad at me, (was that a woman thing or a bipolar thing?) I did not want to take on the role of her Husbands and kids weight that her husband should do for her. So out we went. Within 3 days she had kicked her husband out and then, all other adult males two days later? She used to be sweet as pie and now acted like the devil himself.
Me and my brother did move out. We were homless for two full months. living in a Walmart parking lot. My brother still had his job, so she would make regular trips to walmart (on Dadas payday) to guilt him into helping her. A sad tale indeed. She quit her job making good money because that's what men are for! That's why we were homeless for 2 whole months! My money was dwindling fast and I needed to go to work. I found a good jb on my first try. I told my brother he would have to help us with money to get us a place and get off the street. With all that, she still wouldnt even let us come by to shower or do laundry once a week! My brothers helper let us shower and do laundry at his house, but could not let us move in because his place was small already. So with my fiest paycheck, I started looking for a place to rent. The very first place that I went to that had an acceptable house to rent accepted us. Next payday would let me & my brother both pitch in for that, first & last & security deposit. And one more week, and we were not homeless any more!
This infuriated my niece! She kicked us out and wouldnt help us, but she was going for her Dad's money all the time too. She'd try on me and I said no I cant support you, where's your husband, the childrens Father? (well he cant afford to help anymore, he had to have a place to live too. And I said no, why should I help you when you are so nasty to your family? Get your prioroties in order girl! She hates me for that, and she did lose her place and she moved in (with all 4 kids!) to her dealers house (which was the dealers mothers house. I hear tell that, that only lasted one week and then the mom kicked them all out, and rightly so I think. I dont know where thy are now, I live in a close small city and dont get over to my brothers very often anymore.
Now the point of all this, is...Do you think it is possible that thse things which trouble you add interferance to your decision making processes? Do you take your bipolar meds consistently? (Of course I may be wrong, I dont know much about being bipolar except that one person, my niece. When she went off her midications she turned from white to black in her behavior, so that's ALL I know about bipolar)
So, Somedays I see you makes reasonable sounding posts. Other days its like you are someone else. I just wondered if you think that it is even possible for it to be conditional to a lack of medication or maybe a stronger dose? I dont even know what myopic means! But it doesnt sound good. Maybe your post content being somewhat different at times may be related to one or more of your conditions?
I may not have everything 100% right, but wherein is a difficulty, is also a cause for it, and effects upon you. Yes? No?
