Many things can be known logically but never understood until experienced. Some things cannot be experienced until one's faith is tested to the point of total surrender. It is like willing to lose everything, even life as we know it, to see a life we have not known before.
On one occasion at the point of losing a loved one of many years, I accepted the loss and gave all my heart to what is no longer. It was the first time I truly experienced unconditional love. What I surrendered was the person. What I gave my heart to was the love in that person. At that very moment, I saw a vision of a spirit light-being instead of the person. The spirit looked at me as if to say "Oh, you can see me". Instantly I realized that we are spirit and not this body we are clothed in. I also realized, BECAUSE of this revelation, that my WHOLE life was invalid as a fabricated story which I made for myself since birth.
A shift of life reference occurred within me, and is still shifting after many years. The shift is from seeing the world from a 'self' point of reference to a spirit point of reference. It is hard to explain. It is as if the self-reference looks from the outside into the body to find itself. The spirit knows that there is no 'self' and looks from the inside out. Because the spirit views life from the inside, it sees what is inside. The self sees from the outside and only sees what is outside, such as appearances, of a person. The spirit sees inside, such as love, truth, as well as fear and deceptions, of a person.
At first, this all seemed both very strange, as if losing ones mind, which in a way was true. Because I no longer had any desire to conform to other peoples fears, such as people-pleasing to stay liked, I felt very isolated. But I loved the truth more than wanting to be accepted by others. From this I discovered the truth of solitude, which is opposite. It became clearer that the world is back to front from the Truth. Everybody seemed to be saying things purely to protect their 'self', which is invalid in the first place. The world was in a constant battle of the selves or egos. I did not want to play that game any longer.
As a consequence, I have been living like a hermit. For over ten years now, I have been living in silence (no TV, no radio, no news, I don't even know who our prime minister is). I love the sounds of nature. I love this lifestyle. It is simple and serene. I use the computer for learning, shopping, and converse with Christians, on the Internet, because they are the only ones on earth who are closest to the Truth.