I took out a Ouja board that my grandmother had in the basement this week and put in on a shelf farthest from the house in a detached garage. I don't think anyone's touched it in 20 years. I have some MTG cards I am on the fence about, only because I am so desperate. I have prayed over them. I have had them for 17 years. It's monsters & magic, D&D style play. Always seemed near as innocent as Pokemon. Never would have considered it prior to this. Don't know if it would be good or bad to remove them. I've always liked fantasy stuff like this, Lord of the Rings, Zelda.. Hugely popular stuff never associated with occult or any evil activities, just children's entertainment. Considering whether it would be taking it a step too far to get rid of this, if I would be losing my mind/letting this thing push me around. Millions of Christians all over the world exist alongside fantasy stuff and never have any problems -- I've met several men at the church I am attending who are into the IPs I mentioned. My life also started getting a lot worse around the time I got into it, but I don't know whether to associate the two now or just chalk it up to the age (end of middle school, started feeling the effects of rejection from teachers and peers a lot more -- which I have always been outcasted or unfairly targeted sort of but that was the point where it started to affect me more -- and then moved to a high school where I knew no one; it was unpleasant until I made friends, but the teachers still seemed to single me out regularly).
It's tough. I don't even know who I am anymore. This thing has the power to change anything about my entire life/perceptions and I don't want to be pushed around by whatever it's doing. That's where a lot of the torture initially came from before I realized it was a bad thing and could literally just change what I did, how I thought/felt/saw anything to whatever it wanted for its purposes by mixing feelings and such illogically or just saying whatever was whatever way and making it so. It's driven me to operate on dry logic alone, whereas before I was a very emotional/perception driven individual.