To be honest, sometimes I hesitate in even mentioning the death and resurrection of Jesus Christ to you because you bring up the idolotry of worshiping the serpent on a pole. So I wonder if you reject it entirely.
hmm well Christ died for my sins, but see how that may be understood in more than one way. Or bam address "
No Son of Man may die for another's sins..." and the other...less popular vv I repeat as you will, to
your satisfaction. "Worship" also has more than one def I guess, and this should also be examined maybe. It ends up being another English word that maybe doesn't fit so well, like "Lord." But we have become convinced via simple repetition that these are the only acceptable terms and definitions; we, the same ones who now sing "When we all get to heaven."
So I guess the best way I could reply is to say that you can pursue
Life more abundantly or Death More Abundantly, but imo you cannot practically do both
at the same time I’m stuck in ...”...so what now. Are you there?
well I have been, sure. But...there are no works you can do, or, um, ha, I value those moments now, doing nothing is a hard thing to do, huh?
man, it's hard for me to say anything of value here, when "where/how do I
stop from here?" might be a more pertinent Q lol. But this "I'm
stuck in 'so what now?'" suggests to me that "so what now?" is not a comfortable place for you at the moment, when it is where everything happens for me now, but I doubt I could coerce you into a featureless cave for a week's fasting, to meet your monster so to speak, but I guess the principle of "fasting" is the answer to this. Sensory deprivation is quicker, fwiw. You are going for the loss of like "personal identity" here, imo, at least I think that is the point. l was lucky, spent some time in solitary confinement and had no choice, that or go nuts, but how one might do that voluntarily i'm not sure. Note that no matter how hard you resist, you "are" somewhere right now, and you are doing something right now, right. Try
not doing those things, as hard as you can, and see what happens maybe. The point is to identify this "I" and...come to terms with it imo, this thing that you made to cope with the world. Unfort the Bible is light on the mechanics there, "
pluck your eye out" and a few other hints, but imo one might do this any number of ways...pretty much all "Eastern" to us I guess