i'm not sure how i keep implying this tbh, but when i ask it doesn't clarify anyway, so what i will say here is that you are still holding on to a premise...um, you are still talking about Jesus, and i mean to speak about Christ? Um, or a better way to put it might be that...you are not disallowed from considering that the world was founded
in you at some certain point, ok--when you founded it--and that
that is when the Lamb was slain.
one can also get to the same point understanding Nehushtan i guess, Nehushtan worship
so, i understand that even suggesting you abandon the premise right now seems like maybe sacrilege or something, but you might see that nothing will change except your mind ok, the premise is not going anywhere, you can always pick it back up later, in an hour or whatever, we're strictly talking assuming another pov for purposes of understanding better truth, ok, or if not better then toss it!
other discussions of "Jesus did not die for your sins" are readily available fwiw Naomi, and while there might be few atheist rants in there somewhere for the most part they seem to be trying to get to a better understanding of Christ too, so even if there are several that i would not agree with bc they are put more religiously than i would like, one of these might be more up your alley?
https://www.stmatthews.nz/sermon-12/i1iazzd2259/Jesus-Did-NOT-Die-for-Our-Sins is from an Anglican, i guess, or you might find a more palatable one if you like. I have always gone right to the perceived enemy for my revelations, but i understand that isn't for everyone ok.
but hopefully you see that i did not like make this up, so discrediting me here is really pointless imo, the concept did not come from me anyway