Wonderful words.
I'm glad, too, and I apologize again if I hurt your feelings. I didn't mean to. There actually is someone out there right now who I have always cared for, but who now posts like they utterly despise me. So in a way you and I are actually in much the same boat really. I've had a bunch of feelings waging war inside me lately; whether to still hope, or just cut my losses; whether to keep being patient or say enough is enough...
So to make a long story short, you have someone here who understands.
Again, sounds very familiar, LoL. People have been posting excellent quotes lately about burn out in ministry, and getting worn down to nothing. I am very capable of this, and most of the people you are working to help in Christian ministry are in this place where they can't really give much back, so you keep getting drained, especially emotionally. And I still think I am one of the most emotional men I have ever known. So that kind of work really takes it out of me, and in the midst of it I would think, "I need somebody that makes ME feel loved." The trouble is, it's a set up and a weakness. You place yourself in danger of some "hero" coming along who may not have your best interest at heart underneath it all, and the next thing you know you are compromising your own moral standards just for some companionship and someone to lean on. I think it's why there've been so many pastors who have ended up running off with their secretaries. Too much workload, too little emotional support.
So if I were you, skip the romance, LoL. Go for friends you can trust in the Lord to be there for you, and be a true help to you in the tough times, because the tough times will come as a Christian. So who you have around you can make the difference between happiness and success or sadness and compromise... at least for a time, anyway.
Thanks for forgiving me. I appreciate it.
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