Sadly that what I was thinking about you. Look to Jesus, the way He was, the way He presented and carried Himself..the things He showed that the Father was telling Him to do.....Mostly, the way He so tried to tell the religious rulers and appointed teachers of the Law, of the day, how much they had misunderstood, He also mentions all the extra burdens MEN had added to the Law.
Jesus says He is the EXPRESS 'image' of the Father, so get to KNOW the Resurrected Jesus FIRST, and then you shall get to know your Father...Receive His Holy Spirit, who will teach you and bring you into ALL the truth.
The Bible bring far too much confusion among men, as they don't know how to rightly divide the word of Truth, that takes Gods help, but most prefer to lean on their own understanding of what has been written.
Look to the beginning of Genesis, how our Father wisely separated the Light from the darkness, right off the bat. His 'Kingdom of Light' is a purer form of Light than you can even imagine, and No darkness, No evil, No sin CAN ever enter into it. the two CANNOT mix, like oil and water here on earth.
That is why it tells us, that certain things cannot enter into the Kingdom of God, it's not that God wouldn't want you to enter ( not you personally, but people ), He just made it that way from the beginning, and has tried ever since, to show mankind how to avoid exclusion.
If God has as you claim, darkness and evil in Him for personal use, He would be excluded by His own Word and His own creation.......Simply not so !
If you would take the time to do what Paul suggested...Take everything you think, everything you have achieved and regard it as dung, in comparison to KNOWING Him in the power of His Resurrection.....NOT knowing something about Him someone else wrote about, no, KNOWING Him, it's an offer to all believers, but few it is, who are willing to find it.....
Think on this also. Is The Bible above God ? Or is God above The Bible ? He says :" Have No other gods before me.", so we must make up our minds whether to do as Jesus said and COME to HIM, or stick our noses in a book we have no where near enough 'smarts' to fully comprehend, without Him.
How about it? Care to truly get to Know Him ? Or will you, like so many others, turn your back on that part, and pretend it doesn't exist ? That the fully Resurrected Jesus, doesn't exist ?
All the very best