Firstly; You're good at criticizing, you're not good at standing on your own truth or characterizing it. You're like the person who walks around trouble shooting everything but never offers solutions or become part of any kind of solution.
Ok, I will tell you, not about your failure because that wouldn't be fair. I don't consider you a failure. The most important thing God wants us to respect about Him is His Word. The thing that separated the prophets in the old testament from the rest of the people was the respect the prophets had in God's word, where the people respected God's law and tried to keep it...in vain. Abraham or Abram at the time, had no law, there was no priesthood, no alter, no sacrifices, no circumcision, no bible - O.T. or otherwise, yet God called upon Abram, and Abram answered "here I am Lord", acknowledging Gods Lordship over himself, an act of respect and humility. Later, while still Abram, God considered Abram His friend. Abram walked toward the promised land without a roadmap, a blue print, no signs or wonders, no spiritual guides. He simply trusted in God's word and chose to walk in a manner pleasing to God in real time, rather than walk somewhere as though he was hired and "working" for poor God who needed his help. So many today do exactly that and then give themselves a big hug for effort...ahhhh!
When God said let there be light, He wasn't calling light into existence, God was commanding His word to create light. In the Gospel of John, we see clearly that nothing that was created was created apart from the word, which was from the beginning. Apart from His word, nothing could have existed, not even light. Before there was a man, God established His word as the Lord of All. "and the word became flesh and dwelt among us as the only begotten of the Father".
Believing in God's word is not enough. We must receive His word and act upon it/Him!