Yes - I have had a lot of tests - we'll see where God leads. I know we're called to forgive. I am trying to work out when it is right to hold one accountable vs just forgiveness.I understand your feelings. But fortunately, I've not been put to that test yet.
I watched a show last night "Alpha Dog" - a true story about Nick Markowitz who was kidnapped by druggie friends of his brothers for a debt owed. They eventually killed him. His mother attempted suicide 11 times. She was consumed with holding them accountable. She put flyers everywhere and worked to try to hold them accountable. The mastermind, Jesse James Hollywood, was given life. I felt some of the pain that Susan Markowitz must have felt. I went on her sons memorial page and told her how sorry I was for what happened. I read other mothers who had posted. I think a mother's love is so much stronger, and deeper, and when something happens to their child - and even another's child - they feel it, because they know that level of deep love for the child they gave birth to. There is no stronger sentiment, IMO.