I was beaten up many times by black and Hispanic children in my youth.
I'm sorry you've been so mistreated.
I've visited quite a few churches with predominantly black congregations as an adult and found all of them to be quite welcoming overall.
Hopefully, you will find yourself a nice little, quiet, "white neighborhood" in the New Jerusalem.
“If you have run with the footmen, and they have wearied you, Then how can you contend with horses? And if in the land of peace, In which you trusted, they wearied you, Then how will you do in the floodplain of the Jordan? (Jeremiah 12:5)
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