While I won't discount that there are some people who really are suffering schizophrenia in this world, I would guess that all the so called professionals, would call just about any believer schizophrenic lol.......They simply just do not have a clue....I don't know you and therefore won't try to tell you what's what...However I can pass on a story to you about a Christian lady in the USA who got locked up in an institution because of her beliefs...the reason the judge gave was 'Excessive joy' ......This whole world is set up against anyone having an actual relationship with our Lord God, even a lot who claim to be Christians do this......Mind you, anyone who claims God is telling them to kill or hurt anyone are most certainly not hearing from God, but that doesn't mean they're not hearing it....Just means that it could be from the opposition to God......I sincerely hope you can find peace in His loving arms...All the best