you want conditional life, you can have it,
You have conditional life if your faith is nominal, shallow, or lukewarm.
My exhortation to you is this.
Phl 2:12, Wherefore, my beloved, as ye have always obeyed, not as in my presence only, but now much more in my absence, work out your own salvation with fear and trembling.
which means,
2Pe 1:10, Wherefore the rather, brethren, give diligence to make your calling and election sure: for if ye do these things, ye shall never fall:
You are not saved by "retaining faith".
That is false doctrine and heresy.
We have access by faith into this grace wherein we stand (Romans 5:1-2). And we are saved by grace through faith (Ephesians 2:8-9).
And therefore, if we lose faith, we lose access to grace; and therefore are no longer saved, in the case, whether it be hypothetical or real, that we lose access to grace because we no longer have faith.
Now I will say that those who have a heart faith that is unto righteousness (Romans 10:10) and enduring to the end (Matthew 10:22, Hebrews 3:6, Hebrews 3:14) have an everlasting faith, since they have everlasting life (John 6:47) for that they have been sealed by the Holy Spirit (Ephesians 1:13-14, Ephesians 4:30, 2 Corinthians 1:22, 2 Corinthians 5:5) and therefore the faith that is instilled in them by the Holy Spirit will remain in them for as long as they are sealed.
Those who have a nominal, shallow, or lukewarm faith (mere mental assent to the tenets of the gospel) are not necessarily sealed by the Holy Spirit and do not necessarily have everlasting life.
Therefore this is the exhortation.
Phl 2:12, Wherefore, my beloved, as ye have always obeyed, not as in my presence only, but now much more in my absence, work out your own salvation with fear and trembling.
which means,
2Pe 1:10, Wherefore the rather, brethren, give diligence to make your calling and election sure: for if ye do these things, ye shall never fall:
You teach that you have "indwelling sin".
If you have indwelling sin, then you are not yet saved.
Scripture?
If you say that you have no (indwelling) sin, you are not saved (you deceive yourself and the truth is not in you)...1 John 1:8.
You have three fingers pointing back at you (Matthew 7:1-5, Luke 6:41-42).
And I can prove it. You do not only attempt to deceive others; but you have deceived yourself in that you deny indwelling sin. 1 John 1:8 is clear on that. But you are blind to the plain meaning of what that verse says to you.
2Co 4:3, But if our gospel be hid, it is hid to them that are lost:
2Co 4:4, In whom the god of this world hath blinded the minds of them which believe not, lest the light of the glorious gospel of Christ, who is the image of God, should shine unto them.
But I know that none of this will even phase you. For it is written,
2Ti 3:12, Yea, and all that will live godly in Christ Jesus shall suffer persecution.
2Ti 3:13, But evil men and seducers shall wax worse and worse, deceiving, and being deceived.
I know that I seek to live godly in Christ Jesus and that this is evidenced by the reality of this passage. But the fact that you are a seducer is also evidenced by this passage; since you seem to be incapable of repenting of your damnable heresy that Christians do not have indwelling sin.