Hello, I.O.U,
Do you ever watch anything youtube channels about true crimes? Have watched many of them they are all interesting to listen to, some messed up things people do too. All depends on the circumstances, emotions, feelings, surroundings, whatever is going on in the mind of the person, how long have the thoughts been around, what were the parents like.
All I know in just something extra to add because your profile says Atheist, even though you are Atheist that does not bother me. The only extra thing would like to add is that when never knowing God or who Christ Jesus was, in my own life. Darkness was always around, and heavy weight was always on my shoulders, along with hate in my heart. (Just desired to share).
Thank you for your time,
With love in Christ,
Matthew G.