Invisibilis
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Consciously dishonest.well, as i said i'm not quite sure "dishonesty" is the word i would have plugged in there, mighta used Hypocrisy or something, but that doesnt mean you dont have a point, more like just that i saw exceptions to what was imo being said as an Absolute Truth, just like i do now for up there, for instance someone who always lies or even embellishes say is maybe not being dishonest at all, they could be said to be "true to themselves" right? And what if i didnt create a personal issue, a personal issue just arose? And i create agendas all the time--bout to grab the dog and go up to the trailhead for a quickie; found Storm King yesterday, its 3/8 of a mile from here woo hoo--and im not feeling any tension at all? "Dishonesty of consciousness" id have to marinate on, not sure what that means. Could you rephrase that? ty
Tensions vary from very subtle to the obvious. The obvious ones are least expressed, but the subtle ones are the most experienced. A state of internal rest, peace, love, softness of being, gentle, humble and meek, honesty, point to having no issues/agendas. Unconditionality has no issues/agendas.
The subtle need/want to grab the dog and go somewhere has a subtle tension attached to it. The tension comes from the belief that you are not okay and you create a need or a want to obtain so you can feel okay again. The belief that you are not okay is the original sin (original dishonesty) of who we are at the innermost of us. The fear of not being okay is a form of tension. All forms of fear is a form of tension _ which wastes our life energy on our own dishonesty.
All it takes is something to cross your agenda to arouse greater tension within you. The idea that you cannot get what you want or need will create a greater want/need. Some people will 'try' to force their issues or agendas by getting angry, or frustrated, or even mildly disappointed for a second.