We all have dark days, Nancy, and it can be difficult to know the right thing to say to those in the midst of them. Yes, you will be in my prayers, as you are in those of many here.
But, I would also say, don't doubt God. You may not see, hear or feel him, but his wisdom, grace and love are more than our doubts, fears and mistakes. He is more than able to take whatever we do, or whatever mire we're struggling through, and turn it to our good.
The hardest thing I struggle with, and it's a daily struggle, is that 'our good' may not actually lead to better days, just a state of being more reliant upon Christ. Of more in love with Christ. I cling to Romans 8:18: "For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed in us."
Life IS hard. It can feel we are stumbling through a maze of fog, bumping into razor rocks. But Paul tells us that compared to what we have in Christ and what he has prepared for us, it is all worth it! Consider that for a moment, especially when things are so dark you can't imagine they can get worse....they are not even worthy of consideration in comparision to what is coming! Oh...the comfort that gives me. It should comfort us all. Paul encourages us to set our shoulders, hold our heads high and trust. Trust in the one who suffered first. He went through the dark, foggy days or razor rocks first. And he emerged from it so we could as well. I don't know about you, but that is a God that I not only trust, but I respect and love. And even when I feel alone, depressed, overwhelmed, bone-crushingly weary, I keep that firmly in mind. This....this will not be forever. This is not what Christ has for me, or you, forever. And we are not alone in our struggles. We have brothers and sisters who struggle too and a Saviour who can sympathise. Because yes...sometimes following God leads us to situations that hurt. It lead Christ to a cross. But we know the why of that, and the wonderful gift that came from it. God wants what is best for you. And sometimes that may be to lead you to a place where you have nowhere left to turn but him. I don't really know you or the situation, but I know our God. He is worthy of trust and praise. You won't ever be disappointed or let down if you follow him. It probably won't be easy...I don't know that he ever promises that. But that's not the point. The best thing for us to be closer to him and more like his son. Sometimes that comes through hardship.
Stay strong, keep your heart soft and call out to the one who listens. And us...we're here!