What I can't wrap my head around is the insistence that to believe means to believe He died and so you will live forever. The gospel has become, to men, just believing one part of what Jesus said, but not all of it.
Adam and Eve were told not to do something or they would die. They didn't believe Him and so they disobeyed, and so they died. If they had believed, they would not have disobeyed.
Yet we seem to think it's okay to say we believe and so our unbelief in other areas is not counted against us. Yet if we believed, we would not be disobedient. So our disobedience proves we are liars.
It's as if we think that we have a magic talisman that has made us to be saved for believing one thing while disbelieving all else.
If I say I believe Jesus that I will live, but then disbelieve what He's said about temporal provision, have I really believed Him? I've believed Him for life but haven't believed what else He said.
I clearly see that its a deal to cheat death. I would say, and not a very clever one at that, except that its clever enough to dupe many people - the majority of Christendom even!
If I buy fire insurance, it won't cover me if I am the one who sets my own house on fire. But men say, nope, we're covered even if we DO set our own house on fire. Nothing we do can make our insurance policy of no effect.
So the insurance policy becomes: I think Jesus died to make me live forever. But the insurance policy is that He made a way for us to God. It is by Gods kindness but through trust. But we define trust as only trust that we will live forever, but not trust in all else Jesus said. Trusting all else He said is an optional addendum that we can cross out. In fact, if we refuse to cross out the addendum, we are told we have fallen from Gods kindness because we are striving to trust Him completely.
I cannot wrap my head around it. Its very hideous.