I accept that you accept Jesus is real, that in your mind most of you have accepted what you believe to be real.
What you accept is in error.
People who Accept Jesus, do so with the thoughts of their HEART, (not their MIND).
There's only one way an outsider can know this same experience.
Correct.
To totally surrender to a belief in him as well.
Yes, from the thoughts in their HEART.
I never got to that point, so my 20 year's of faith was fake.
Your FAITH, was "not fake".
Your FAITH, was IN small Measures.
You "walked" away,
You "stopped" receiving Measures of Faith.
You "fell from Faith".
You "sought" other things.
You "NEVER" received "FAITH-FULLNESS".
Earnest "seeking" is up to the man.
Earnest "belief" is up to the man.
Earnest "following"is up to the man.
Receiving "FAITH" is an ACT of God.
I thought I was a Christian, but I was not even close.
"IF" you were FOLLOWING and BELIEVING...
You "WERE" a Christian.
You simply didn't Continue, Believe in your Heart, Receive FULL "faith-FULLNESS" and surrender your Life to the Lord.
You NEVER became "a Saved and Born Again Christian"...or in short, AKA, A man "Converted IN Christ".
Had I actually surrendered to Jesus,
Quite possible....
From your MINDS thoughts.
Participated in a church RITUAL.
But:
From your Heart<---> not possible.
I would have altered my mind in such a way that I could never return from.
Agree. Your MIND sought other avenues.
The QUESTION is WHY?
The ANSWER is; you were never Really Satisfied with "your mindful belief" in the Lord.
The WHY is; you Didn't surrender with True thoughts of YOUR HEART.
I would presume you Experienced NO EFFECTS of the Lords Spirit BEING IN YOU.
I would say, that is Because He wasn't.
This is why no matter what I say is seen as a lie, because you of the one true faith have accepted something that I am not.
Not so much as a LIE, but rather Irrelevant.
No one IN Christ, will be Swayed or Distracted to Consider Anything Other than thee Heavenly Lord God Almighty.
Coming into FAITH-FULLNESS, requires the DESIRE of the Individual and the EFFORTS of the Individual.
Glory to God,
Taken