i honestly feel trapped.

[Mister Michael]

i am feeling trapped because i am want to be a christian but i know that if i tell my grandparents that i want to be a christian they'll shun me. i know it's not their fault and it's simply the watchtower but i don't want to lose my grandparents. i want to become christian cause i feel like the jws are wrong on most cases but if i do declare that i want to be a non jw christian they will call me an apostate and push me aside or try to convert me and turn me down.

also i feel like i am trapped due to the pressure to stay a jw but wanting to "break free" from the jw falseness. everyday i am still a jw i feel like i wanna die. i go to kingdom halls and i can't trust the elders. i pray to God and that helps. but i think i won't actually be free until i really find Christ.

i also feel trapped and saddened each day because if i stay in jw and never become an christian. then i'll be sent to hell cause i never repented or find another church to go to and follow the the christian bible.

why is everything so tough for me.

i even have thoughts of suicide,
simply cause of my negative thoughts of going to hell

and not having a will to live.

i hate the watchtower i hate the kingdom hall i hate the meetings.

yet i still go simply cause i want to stay with my grandparents.

i wanted to go back to jw to see what i was missing and feel that life was starting to feel empty with out God. i was never an atheist or agnostic i just slowly stopped going to the jw meetings maybe cause of my great grandfather's death in 2014, or just cause i felt too old for it.

now i found out that the watchtower kept secrets from me kept me away from God.

how can i trust the bible or any christian church, or any christian individual.

every day i felt sadness deep in my heart cause i am jw wanting to be christian and keep telling myself to "don't say anything" "you gonna lose your grandparents" "how can you be a christian and leave jws you just started again" i hate these voice i try to have fun and be happy but i can't i never will till become an actual christian.

can i even trust you people on this thread?

do you guys care what happens to me?


what should i do be a christian and leave the jw faith despite the consequences.

stay a jw and be trapped in a religion you don't even 100% believe in anymore.

 

[Mister Michael]

i am feeling trapped because i am want to be a christian but i know that if i tell my grandparents that i am a jw they'll shun me. i know it's not their fault and it's simply the jw relegation but i don't want to lose my grandparents. i want to become christian cause i feel like the jws are wrong on most cases but if i do declare that i want to be a non jw christian they will call me an apostate and push me aside or try to convert me and turn me down.

i mean if i tell them i am a christian not if i am a jw lol

 

[quietthinker]

Stand tall and firm Michael in what you know is right. Consequences are to be left in Gods hands, they are not our concern. He will not let you down.
Consider the story of Joseph. God used the trials he endured unjustly to burn the dross. This is and will be the experience of all whose hearts reach out for what is right.
Those who are right never shun those who aren't; that behaviour is not inspired by the Father of lights.

 

[Riekertlily]

Thats what i dont understand. all religious groups judge each other and even those that don't believe. I dare not say in my school what i believe.

 

[Hidden In Him]

i am feeling trapped because i am want to be a christian but i know that if i tell my grandparents that i want to be a christian they'll shun me. i know it's not their fault and it's simply the watchtower but i don't want to lose my grandparents. i want to become christian cause i feel like the jws are wrong on most cases but if i do declare that i want to be a non jw christian they will call me an apostate and push me aside or try to convert me and turn me down.

also i feel like i am trapped due to the pressure to stay a jw but wanting to "break free" from the jw falseness. everyday i am still a jw i feel like i wanna die. i go to kingdom halls and i can't trust the elders. i pray to God and that helps. but i think i won't actually be free until i really find Christ.

i also feel trapped and saddened each day because if i stay in jw and never become an christian. then i'll be sent to hell cause i never repented or find another church to go to and follow the the christian bible.

why is everything so tough for me.

i even have thoughts of suicide,
simply cause of my negative thoughts of going to hell

and not having a will to live.

i hate the watchtower i hate the kingdom hall i hate the meetings.

yet i still go simply cause i want to stay with my grandparents.

i wanted to go back to jw to see what i was missing and feel that life was starting to feel empty with out God. i was never an atheist or agnostic i just slowly stopped going to the jw meetings maybe cause of my great grandfather's death in 2014, or just cause i felt too old for it.

now i found out that the watchtower kept secrets from me kept me away from God.

how can i trust the bible or any christian church, or any christian individual.

every day i felt sadness deep in my heart cause i am jw wanting to be christian and keep telling myself to "don't say anything" "you gonna lose your grandparents" "how can you be a christian and leave jws you just started again" i hate these voice i try to have fun and be happy but i can't i never will till become an actual christian.

can i even trust you people on this thread?

do you guys care what happens to me?


what should i do be a christian and leave the jw faith despite the consequences.

stay a jw and be trapped in a religion you don't even 100% believe in anymore.

What you do is pray to the Lord Jesus Christ, Michael. Pray about these exact same things you are expressing concern about in this thread. Ask Him to reveal to you what to expect if you chose the Lord over the JWs. And pray for the wisdom to know exactly how to go about things (James 1:5). Maybe things will not turn out like you think.

 

[Hidden In Him]

Thats what i dont understand. all religious groups judge each other and even those that don't believe. I dare not say in my school what i believe.

I dunno, Riekertlily. The situation he is in sounds like an extreme form of religious judgmentalism, almost like what Muslims do when their family members reject Islam. I and most of the Christians I know would fear for someone we cared about's soul, but we wouldn't shun them.

 

[Willie T]

Is your dad JW?

 

[Episkopos]

Thats what i dont understand. all religious groups judge each other and even those that don't believe. I dare not say in my school what i believe.

You have listed yourself as having...other faith. Which faith is that?

And welcome here!

 

[Willie T]

Thats what i dont understand. all religious groups judge each other and even those that don't believe.
I dare not say in my school what i believe.

Isn't that fact, alone, enough to show you that THOSE are not the kids you need to hang with?

 

[Mister Michael]

Is your dad JW?

not really i mean he was growing up he was a lonely child growing up and his parents where jws so he became one but now is inactive.

 

[Jane_Doe22]

not really i mean he was growing up he was a lonely child growing up and his parents where jws so he became one but now is inactive.

So your dad stays home while you go to the kingdom hall with... your grandparents? Do your grandparents shun your dad?

 

[Mister Michael]

So your dad stays home while you go to the kingdom hall with... your grandparents? Do your grandparents shun your dad?

no they talk to him alot especially my grandpa.

my dad sells place at a barn that he got from a freind and has been in a partnership with.

my grandpa and him go to auction to buy stuff to sell there.

so they haven't shun him.

but they do want me to try and bring him back and set an example for the rest of the family.

on Sunday he goes to the barn to sell. i help him on Saturdays and get payed for helping.

 

[Jane_Doe22]

So, why can't you refuse to go, like your dad?

 

[Mister Michael]

So, why can't you refuse to go, like your dad?

i don't think he refused i think he simply stopped going cause he had to take care of us and was probably forgotten about it when he married.

 

[Mister Michael]

i don't think he refused i think he simply stopped going cause he had to take care of us and was probably forgotten about it when he married.

i can refuse but my grandparents will leave me cause i officially left.

 

[lforrest]

i can refuse but my grandparents will leave me cause i officially left.

I think you may be going too fast. Can you back down from doing JW stuff without making any commitments now? Perhaps to help your dad?

 

[Mister Michael]

I think you may be going too fast. Can you back down from doing JW stuff without making any commitments now? Perhaps to help your dad?

you're probably right

 

[quietthinker]

Thats what i dont understand. all religious groups judge each other and even those that don't believe. I dare not say in my school what i believe.

yeah Riekertilly, they behave like that. Not much you can do about it. You can and must however come to your own conclusions for your own reasons if you don't want to be drawn into the bun fight.
I can see you're a little thinker, keep it up.

 

[Mayflower]

Been keeping you in prayer Michael. I just didn't want to comfuse you with so many responses. I agree with trying to help your dad, or maybe ask if you can get a job until you can figure out how to do this.

 

[Mister Michael]

Been keeping you in prayer Michael. I just didn't want to comfuse you with so many responses. I agree with trying to help your dad, or maybe ask if you can get a job until you can figure out how to do this.

okay thank you for the advice and for keeping prayers for me is there anything i can do for you?