You have it backwards. You are trusting in God by GOING TO GOD to be crucified. Otherwise you are leaning on your own understanding in thinking that a gift justifies you from condemnation.
All of your posts are twisted...you are relying on yourself and your own errors in understanding. You are proud and arrogant...with not a trace of humility or fear. So you will be rejected. God is looking for BOTH vessels of honour AND vessels of shame and dishonour. So you have chosen your destiny because of your ego.You still need to go to God.
And a heretic HATES going to God. (or even the mention of having to go to God....so much for a relationship)
A basic logic shows that a person who thinks he doesn't need to go to God is in a make believe world that is trying to SHUT God out.
Instead these rely on their own understanding...thinking that to be "saved" means never having to say you're sorry...OR GO TO GOD.
A salvation of God avoidance.
that is what you are preaching here...a false gospel.
Lets again look at your issue.
Here is the reality.
To "wrongly abide" as you are doing.... is to believe that you keep yourself saved by "abiding" as a self effort.
"im doing it, im remaining, im enduring, im abiding"....my effort, myself, its ME doing it.... me, me, me, me, me.
In other words...>"by abiding, I keep myself saved".
This is "self saving"....this is Legalism.... this is heresy.
Your Legalism substitutes self effort, for the Blood Atonement.
You need to turn from this, and learn how to Trust Christ to keep you saved.