One wakes up in the wee hours of the morning in a start, with a nervous shaking, with a sense of dread, because one realizes one has been dreaming thoughts of passed sins, dreaming of entering into them… The heart reels at the thought and try’s to ignore them, but the thoughts are persistent, but not wanting to enter into them so the heart thinks, nothing has changed, Jesus has still died for my sins, I am still dead in Him… So the reckoning starts… The mind says, ‘I don’t want anything to do with these sins’, so it starts reckoning itself dead to the thoughts, over and over, again and again… The battle grows fervent and fierce, but the reckoning continues over and over, the thoughts refuse to be silenced and stop, but knowing the victory is found in faith, if it will but hold out in trusting the love of God towards it to live His life in one.. The thoughts are like a thick cloud encompassing, but the heart knows that Jesus still loves, and He has not changed His mind, and it knows it’s salvation consists of being crucified with Him so it might be made free from all this sin… Then the thought enters, this is what is meant in scripture when it says, ‘I with my mind serve the law of God but I see a different law warring in my body’ and again, ‘it is no longer I that sin but sin that dwells in me’…. The heart sees hope, the faith grows stronger to continue to reckon itself dead to all that is rising up in it… Over and over it reckons itself dead, knowing that sin can not cause a dead man to act, for a dead man is dead and incapable of responding… So the heart settles in for a fight, refusing to be moved from the faith that says, ‘I have been crucified with Christ, it is no longer I that live but Christ that lives in me’, slowly the darkness starts to fade, a bit of joy is sensed deep inside, a bit of light is seen… The battle is growing to a close, the cloud of sin is being defeated by faith, the faith that refuses to be moved from the salvation offered in Christ..
The heart knows this was not the first battle fought, nor will it be the last, but experiencing victory over the sin that dwells in one brings joy and hope for then one realizes one has found the path to life and the freeing taste of victory over the body of this death…
Onto the One who has brought such an awesome salvation to man, free to the heart that would be willing to die to all of itself by faith, that it might walk in a new and living way…
Unto Him be all glory, power and praise..
A follower of His, Not me
The heart knows this was not the first battle fought, nor will it be the last, but experiencing victory over the sin that dwells in one brings joy and hope for then one realizes one has found the path to life and the freeing taste of victory over the body of this death…
Onto the One who has brought such an awesome salvation to man, free to the heart that would be willing to die to all of itself by faith, that it might walk in a new and living way…
Unto Him be all glory, power and praise..
A follower of His, Not me
