Your personal convictions aside, thats simply wrong on all points
We were slaves to sin, now we've become slaves to righteousness.
Romans 6:16-18 KJV
16) Know ye not, that to whom ye yield yourselves servants to obey, his servants ye are to whom ye obey; whether of sin unto death, or of obedience unto righteousness?
17) But God be thanked, that ye were the servants of sin, but ye have obeyed from the heart that form of doctrine which was delivered you.
18) Being then made free from sin, ye became the servants of righteousness.
Predestination is a fixed boundery that you don't cross.
προορίζω
proorizō
pro-or-id'-zo
From G4253 and G3724; to limit in advance, that is, (figuratively) predetermine: - determine before, ordain, predestinate.
When I came to Christ, I handed over control to Him. Whatever He wants me to do, or whatever He wants to do with me, He's Lord. All that remains is training me in cooperation. He disciples me.
Isn't that what LORD means?
I'm quite convinced myself that He does sometimes prevent me from carrying out poor choices I've made.
Like Balaam, Like Abilmelech, and Pharoah (Abraham's time), Saul of Tarsus, each of these were stopped by God from continuing in courses of sin, and in different ways.
When I was 18 and trying so hard to kill myself, there were literal miracles that kept me from dying. It wasn't time yet apparently.
And I really do trust Him to take care of me even against me. I'm my own worst enemy, you know! That is, my flesh is my worst enemy, I think. And even if it's getting the upper hand with me, no, Jesus is under no obligation to let it win.
"Casting all your cares on Him, for He cares for you."
Am I the only one here who is trusting Jesus to pull me back from sin? The battle between spirit and flesh goes on, and my flesh is pretty messed up! It puts up one hell of a fuss, and is insidious. Serious. I trust Jesus in this also.
Much love!