I ended up in the unit of the hospital that is locked to protect a person from harming themselves. Spent some time there which didn’t fix anything. I could fill this thread up with the anxiety I’ve experienced but I’m sure it is not any different or worst than others have suffered here. Just know I’m familiar with anxiety and depression. But also know God does heal depression and anxiety. I can testify to it. The anxiety and panic attacks are gone. What depression I have left, is not an overwhelming sense of life being pointless and too difficult to overcome, but of sorrow. Yes, it is not depression at all...but sorrow. Sorrow because I hate evil(calamity) and what it brings(unrest). Sorrow for my children and grandchildren because even though I know the outcome of a broken life that turns to God for new life...I also realize the way into the Kingdom is through tribulation...those tribulations are hard to watch in another and praise Him in the midst. because even though we are fully aware it is the sufferings that drive one toward God...it is still sorrowful to watch.
Sorrow: 2 Corinthians 7:10
[10] For godly sorrow worketh repentance to salvation not to be repented of: but the sorrow of the world worketh death.
Much longsuffering: Romans 9:22
[22] What if God, willing to shew his wrath, and to make his power known, endured with much longsuffering the vessels of wrath fitted to destruction:
1 Corinthians 5:2
[2] And ye are puffed up, and have not rather mourned, that he that hath done this deed might be taken away from among you.
Matthew 5:4
[4] Blessed are they that mourn: for they shall be comforted.
Used to think this verse only pertained to “mourning” a death of a loved one. But there is a different mourning(it is complete; a deep mourning of a dead life wasted serving self rather than serving Him) and those that enter into it “shall be comforted” with the presence of His Spirit.
Yes, it is so sorrowful to watch. I have said before, but can't remember where, I could not do to my children what God does to me. I couldn't. But He can...yet He feels it just as much, if not more.
Perhaps we can enter into the grief of the Father in giving up His Son. Though I believe that grief was the greatest ever experienced. Is there anyone who believes God the Father didn't feel the grief of that moment?
God does bring us into His experience's. And I am convinced it is only His healing that cures or enables the believer to overcome depression.
Stranger