This is likely something you've never learned from Orthodoxy, but it comes straight out of the Word of God.
First things first. We can try to turn away from sin, but we are only successful AFTER we have received the Holy Spirit. So true repentance is not turning away from sin all by yourself. Repentance is acknowledging you are a sinner and that you can't stop sinning on your own.
Next, after this acknowledgement that you are weak, it is then you cry out to Jesus to free you from your desire to sin. Jesus fills you with His own Spirit that cannot sin, and it empowers you to be able to turn away from sin because you've been born again with a new nature that partakes of the divine nature of Christ. In other words, we MUST be born again and baptized with God's Spirit to have any hope of being saved.
Understand? Ananias and Sapphira were filled with the Spirit, and willfully lied anyway. They quenched the Spirit. Hebrews 10:26-31 (We have been warned to never grieve or quench the Spirit, and for good reason!)
26 For if we sin willfully after we have received the knowledge of the truth, there no longer remains a sacrifice for sins, 27 but a certain fearful expectation of judgment, and fiery indignation which will devour the adversaries. 28 Anyone who has rejected Moses’ law dies without mercy on the testimony of two or three witnesses. 29 Of how much worse punishment, do you suppose, will he be thought worthy who has trampled the Son of God underfoot, counted the blood of the covenant by which he was sanctified a common thing, and insulted the Spirit of grace? 30 For we know Him who said, “Vengeance is Mine, I will repay,” says the Lord. And again, “The Lord will judge His people.” 31 It is a fearful thing to fall into the hands of the living God.
Everyone has a conscience, but the Spirit will super-sensitize your conscience, so NEVER go against your conscience. It is your jet-fueled conscience that prevents you from committing sins unto death. Resist the devil and he will flee from you.
What are the details leading up to your visit from the Father? I'd like to know.