The greatest pain i feel is not hunger, homelessness, suffering, pain or sickness. The worse pain i go through everyday is rejection. Sometimes i feel like creating space for myself and living there alone.
No one will understand living in a society where you are afraid to talk(once you speak, every can say from where you come from and make mockery of you), cannot associate and most at time refuse services or even having people to force you perform a shameful task.
I am always so joyful when people reply my messages on here. I feel like someone is talking to me. This is the only society I freely interact. I login here several time a day just to check if someone has like or reply to my message.
It is not all about physical needs. It is about self-esteem. In real life, i feel no hope only despair, no joy and no peace. Sometimes seeing people build anger in me and I feel like disappearing into space.
It took me several suicide attempts to understand that a holy, perfect, creative, all-knowing God created and love me
I found myself fighting for attention, only to be rejected again and again. Even when I am accepted, the feeling is not mutual as I also feeling it could be for a reason or for a while.
No one will understand living in a society where you are afraid to talk(once you speak, every can say from where you come from and make mockery of you), cannot associate and most at time refuse services or even having people to force you perform a shameful task.
I am always so joyful when people reply my messages on here. I feel like someone is talking to me. This is the only society I freely interact. I login here several time a day just to check if someone has like or reply to my message.
It is not all about physical needs. It is about self-esteem. In real life, i feel no hope only despair, no joy and no peace. Sometimes seeing people build anger in me and I feel like disappearing into space.
It took me several suicide attempts to understand that a holy, perfect, creative, all-knowing God created and love me
I found myself fighting for attention, only to be rejected again and again. Even when I am accepted, the feeling is not mutual as I also feeling it could be for a reason or for a while.
