I'm not here to change anyone's beliefs, including my own.
I'm just trying to better understand others-- just like I would ask a Hindu to explain their views to me (or Methodist or Messianic Jew etc). I keep asking because honestly I haven't found any answer that actually seem to be addressing my concerns. I acknowledge that you SovereignGrace, have tired, and I have thanked you for it, and do so again.
However, if my quest to understand and better love is causing you frustration or any negative emotion, then that's not my desired intent and I can stop trying to understand.