Lady Crosstalk
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I have been asking for 2 years. My heart has not changed. Does that not mean that he is refusing me?
All I can tell you is how others have been helped to rid themselves of a besetting sin. Have you fasted and prayed?
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I have been asking for 2 years. My heart has not changed. Does that not mean that he is refusing me?
I have been asking for 2 years. My heart has not changed. Does that not mean that he is refusing me?
Please answer this one question with a yes or a no:Then why is my heart so hard? Why do I not desire repentance from the heart like I once did?
I read this article and I see myself as Esau. Unable to repent from a pure heart. So hardened that my repentance has become hollow.
Has My Sexual Sin Made Me Unsavable?
"There came a point where God withdrew from Esau. This meant that Esau was so hardened in his heart that even his weeping in search of repentance was phony at the root. He sought repentance with tears and they were fake. They weren’t penitent tears. He couldn’t cry real tears of repentance anymore. His tears were not true. He wanted the blessing. He wanted the safety. He wanted the gifts. He wanted the inheritance. He wanted heaven. But he did not want God."
I find myself wanting to enter back into relationship with God. Having wanted to from the first moment this started. But finding no love or desire for God within myself when I hardened up. These things describe me to a T.
The only way I have not become like Esau is if the Lord has withdrawn from me temporarily as a disciplinary measure. But I do not know how I can know with any degree of positivity.
As long as there is breath in you, there is hope for repentance.
Probably not. It probably means that He is testing you to see just how serious you are about ridding yourself of this habitual sin.
Please answer this one question with a yes or a no:
Do you despise/hate the Blood of Christ?
But what about a believer becoming so hardened by unrepentant sin that they cannot truly repent?
No, it is not the same!I don't believe so. I find myself feeling extremely angry/hateful towards the Lord at times but those times are met with immediate asking the Lord to remove those inclinations. Is that the same this as hating his blood?
I hope you are right. How can I be confident that this is happening and that I have not become like Esau?
I don't believe so. I find myself feeling extremely angry/hateful towards the Lord at times but those times are met with immediate asking the Lord to remove those inclinations. Is that the same this as hating his blood?
Have you asked yourself how you could "hate" the only remedy for sin? That is like hating the medicine you must take to deal with a disease. Wouldn't it be better to hate the disease?
Yes, that's a highly concerning reality. I have no reason to feel such resistance or hatred towards the Lord. It was shocking in the beginning to, in an instant, "hate" someone you've loved more deeply than life. But I can't escape it. I'm fighting with my mind to reject these feelings but they are overwhelming and I do not see the Lord removing them from me even when I ask. I see no movement of the Holy Spirit. This causes me to believe I have been given over to being an enemy of Christ.
The fact that you are troubled by your current condition says that you are NOT like Esau who treated his godly inheritance with contempt--without a thought about it. You need the strengthening that comes from other believers gathering around you and praying for you to hand this part of you to the Holy Spirit and then you need to go to war against it. The weapons of war are listed in Ephesians 6. There are a number of ways to war against the power of darkness. Have you put any of the suggestions that others have made into place? Fasting and prayer is a good place to start. Believing friends might fast and pray with you.
I feel a deep apathy towards the things of the Lord. I feel myself being pulled more deeply into this place of resistance towards Christ and find that my sin looks more desirable. This is deeply concerning in light of eternity. My fear seems to be coming from a place of mental acknowledgement of what is occurring. Instead of a brokenness of heart over my sin against the Lord. This is why I believe I have been given over to my sin like Esau. My question now is, in light of the fact that I can't change this situation, what do I do now? Is death not a better reality for me than continuing to be forced down a road of having to walk contrary to the gospel?