I did, PAul was arrogant enough to think He could outdo Jesus, funny thing about men being a disciple and still had issues. and here you are just like Him trying to improve on Jesus, cant wait to see teh outcome.
Clearly not what Paul was saying or trying to do.
Col 1:23 If ye continue in the faith grounded and settled, and be not moved away from the hope of the gospel, which ye have heard, and which was preached to every creature which is under heaven;
whereof I Paul am made a minister;
[24] Who now rejoice in my sufferings for you, and fill up
that which is behind of the afflictions of Christ in my flesh for his body's sake, which is the church:
"That" which was behind or laking wasn't Christ's afflictions: not in reality nor by what Paul was saying. The "that" was the gentiles. He was looking to educate and guide them in their (the saints at Colossae) walk in the faith. Thats why he said he was made a minister (by Jesus).
His sufferings weren't being hung on a cross or being tortured. He was a minister and gave up his life for the cause. He did have physical hardships and of course dilembas and spiritual travailings. His life as a minister and apostle was not easy.
So love ya brother... But I disagree with you yet again on another point.
That isn't to say I agree that you can have salvation and lose it. I believe you and appear to have it and manifest you never had it to begin with.