Ah!
@LadyofFireandLace, perhaps this is your opportunity to pray for
@Meadow that God will draw her into His loving Embrace so that she can know His Love and purpose for her life.
An open forum is not a good place to discuss private and personal matters, however, using the private messenger facility of this board may be a means, that as
@Rita posted, you can develop a relationship with some other women to help you come to terms with your issues.
Perhaps Fluffy, you can start the ball rolling by messaging Meadow and inviting her into a conversation. From memory you can invite others to join in that conversation.
Shalom
PS: Ah Fluffy, it is good to see that you are still on the forum. This may be your chance to minister to another on this forum and grow as you do so. I pray that you will grow as you minister here doing God's drawing of others into a deeper relationship with God.