Hearing His voice now is what will ultimately make the difference for the "few" who enter through that "strait and narrow gate" not your own understanding of written scriptures. Without the Holy Spirit you cannot hear His voice and you cannot see. This what it means to really be blind according to God.Perhaps you should follow the last guidance Jesus left before he went to the Garden:
Luke 22:35 And he said to them, “When I sent you out with no purse or bag or sandals, did you lack anything?” They said, “Nothing.” 36 He said to them, “But now, let him who has a purse take it, and likewise a bag. And let him who has no sword sell his mantle and buy one.
Or not,
Bobby Jo